Motivation vs. Inspiration - A 30 Day Journey
I've debated doing this kind of thing ever since I started blogging - the documented 30 Day Challenge. With just over a month before my birthday, it seems like good timing, and if there's anything true in this life it's that timing is everything.
Today I am "waking up" from a week long battle with the flu. It's a funny thing, really. I know I do this to myself. I need a rock solid excuse to slow down, and it's tough to deny total body failure despite an unending to-do list. But the sun is shining, the temperature is reaching for 28 degrees, the birds are chirping, and in contrast to the hole I have been living in for the past few days, it is impossible not to feel inspired.
To what? That's the question.
Energy moves very fast in my life, and in the cyclical nature of things, I can often tell what part of the ferris wheel I'm currently on. The upswing feels like clarity. Like enthusiasm, and confidence, and joy, and connection. The downswing is usually harsh - stomach flu harsh - but quick to reset things. To flip the switch and send everything upwards again. And what happens on that upward swing is what I would consider the juice of life.
So for the next 30 days I am attempting to ride that upswing with intent. I want to get back to a place I used to know very well. A place where I was connected - to people, to nature, to my body and myself. I want to shed some of the stuffiness of winter and of domestic life that mutes the brightness and freshness and adventure that life is truly about. And what better time than spring to do it.
The challenge? 30 days to start new momentum. I want to run again, because running has always made me feel free and independent (it's amazing where legs alone can take a person). I want to do yoga consistently again, because yoga has always given me a sense of balance and connection. I want to get outdoors again, because nothing makes me feel more at home than trees and sky and fresh air. I want to get social again, because friendship and conversation brings depth and richness to everything. I want to play with my kids more, because there is always an excuse to be too busy, and this time is flying by at the most unfathomable pace.
I would say that documenting this in a public space is a way to keep up motivation - to have somewhere to "check in" - but that's not really the reason I've wanted to do this for so long. Motivation is not the same as inspiration. I can "motivate" myself in a million ways (and yes, a blog is one of them). But motivation is an efforting. I don't want to "push" myself. That's not what this is about. If anything, that's the opposite. My whole life has been pushing myself, trying to prove something, to justify my value. Apropos that I would become a resume writer, professionally validating one's value on a page. But in a personal sense, sometimes it is essential to stop pushing and start allowing.
These 30 days are an experiment in inspiration. With the simple guidelines of making new momentum a priority, I intend to explore "out loud" how to set new intentions and allow a new momentum to take over. Healthier lifestyle and more connection in everything I'm doing. As a professional, it is my mission to help others write the most powerful stories for themselves that leverage their passions and preferences for the best possible life (and career). For 30 days (and then some, I hope), I intend to do the same for myself.
Wish me luck. The adventure begins May 1st.